Waken by loud coughs as I entered the room I saw her laying there in her pool of blood. My heart stopped for a few minutes not knowing what to do.I came back to my sense and took my phone on my bed and called the ambulance. Within an hour the ambulance was here it took off with her . I haven't come to terms with reality and I don't think I will soon. My mom hasn't been feeling well since my dad passed away so it's my obligation to take care of her. Two months ago I was raped by my uncle .No one knows about it not even my mom .The thought of telling her just shivers me plus I think it will worsen her condition so I decided to keep quiet not because I want to but because it will break my mom to know that her brother raped her daughter. I'll be going to university in a month I wasn't planning to go and leave my mom behind but I have no choice .she needs medical attention and the only way of getting the money she needs for her surgery is if I study and do a part time job. Three days later my mom was released.

" Nomzamo have you thought about the university issue" my mom is so concerned about me going to school .Ever since my dad passed away she has been hiding her pain through an enigmatic smile . She was so serene and cultivated not to mention her beauty. I would be lying to you if I say I knew what happened to all the millions we had.

"Yes ma ,I have thought about it but it doesn't sit well with me because you'll be left all alone in his house with no one to take care of you"

" oh please you know your uncle will be there for me" .we both know that's a blatant lie but I won't agitate with her. sometimes when I talk to her I just feel like telling her the entire truth but then reality doesn't let me. I have been stuck in my own world ever since that tragedy and it's not like it happened once . It happened many times ,I have even lost count of it and it's still happening right under my mother's nose. When I tell him I'm in pain he never listens nor when I'm crying , he only stops when his satisfied .Then he says " It was nice doing business with you " . I despise that man with my entire heart and flesh. I cry myself to bed hoping that one day things would change for the better. I so hope they do.