PROLOGUE

Some feelings are stronger than Fear: Love, Longing, Desire .

For them, Hate turned into Desire. Desire turned into Obsession. Obsession turned into Love.

They had a desire for every inch of her. The smell of her breath, the taste of her pussy, her ass, her tongue and the voice rummaging through every vein in their bodies.

“You are my new obsession. Welcome to my world.

Everybody has an addiction, mine just happens to be you."

Love and Hate are not opposites; they are siblings birthed by obsession.

For her, Longing turned into Desire. Desire turned into Love. Love turned into Pain. Pain turned into Hate.

“In all my longing for a family. I found a home. It looks so perfect, Everything is surreal. I have a dad, a mom, and three loving brothers "

She would never forget the day the deep hurt and pain she felt that had been seething in her for years, boiled over into expressions of hatred.

The years of violence and rejection that she experienced in her relationship with the brothers had become a nightmare that haunted her for the rest of her life.

The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that some are incapable of loving you back.

Behind the brightest smile are the darkest secrets that no one will never understand.

Once the heart gets heavy with pain, people do not cry. They just turn completely silent.

Silent tears hold the loudest pain.

Her silence is just another word for pain.

She gave them her self-esteem, her dignity, her love, her freedom, her body, her mind, and her dreams.

They got her self-esteem, her dignity, her love, her freedom, her body, her mind and her dreams.

Would someone ever treat her with the love and worth that she deserved.

She would never love again, for she should never be loved as she desired to be loved.

Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.

In the end we discover that to love and let go can be the same thing.

To her, Love only hurts you at the end of the day

Is there a cure for her pain?

The cure for pain is in the pain, isn't it?

"Should I face my own nightmares and save myself in the process?"

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Layla Hong: our main girl lead, she was an orphan. She was abandoned at an orphanage at the age of two. She never saw her parents. She was later adopted by the Hong family at the age of twelve. Her only dream has always been to be with her family. She was treated like a princess by the Hong family, especially Mr. Hong. After the death of her adopted brothers, the brothers started to treat her like their exclusive slave. She was raped the first time at the age sixteen by them. Since then, many horrible things had happened to her.

David Hong: Layla’s adopted father. He came from a very ancient and powerful family. He and Katie got married and had three sons. He had many mistresses outside but no illegitimate children. He was a dom. The love of his life was not his wife but his wife’s best friend, Catherine. He died in a plane crash together with his wife.

Katie Hong: Layla’s adopted mom. She came from the Tang family, the second richest and most powerful family in Hongkong, only after the Hong family. She was David's wife and one of David’s subs. She died in a plane crash together with her husband.

Mike Hong : Layla’s adopted brother. He is nine years older than Layla. He is the oldest son out of the three. He is a very possessive man. His possession is Layla, which will turn to love later. He can only tolerate sharing Layla with his brothers as he loves them so much. The only thing Mike fears is losing Layla.

Ryan Hong : Layla’s adopted brother. He is Mike’s twin, a replica of Mike but with a mole under his left eye. He is very possessive of Layla. He holds a great deal of passion and a romantic nature for her. He can only tolerate sharing Layla with his brothers. Like his brothers, the only thing Ryan fears is losing Layla.

Timothy Hong : Layla’s adopted brother. He is the youngest son out of the three. He is four years older than Layla and five years younger than the twins. Like his two brothers, Layla is and will always be his obsession and his love. He can only tolerate sharing Layla with his brothers. His only nightmare is Layla leaving him. He is an ass man.

Catherine Shaw: David’s crush. She came from a nouveau- rich family. She had a brother whose name was Ian. Her best friend was Katie. She then later ran away with Caden and together they had a daughter who was left behind in an orphanage after the car accident.

Caden Shaw: the Shaw family's adopted son aka Catherine's love interest. He loved Catherine to his bones. Later he ran away with Catherine under all the pressure from everyone around them. They had a daughter who was left in an orphanage when they got into a car accident.

Ian Shaw: The brother of Catherine. He is the violent and jealous type. Behind all, he is a coward.

Sarah: Layla’s best friend at the orphanage. They had a rift but later made up when Layla got adopted by the Hong family and left the orphanage for good. She is tall and slim with pitch black eyes and black curly hair. Even though she looks tough and hardly smiles, she can still be considered as a beauty. She is smart, witty but sly sometimes.

Sam: the main leader of the bully group of Layla in the orphanage. He is the son of a prostitute and a drunkard. He is five years older than Layla. He is a very cute boy with his canine teeth and two dimples. He is brave and strong but deep down he is very insecure about everything.

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From author:

First, I want to say thank you for reading my novel. This is my first attempt to be a writer instead of a reader. I have read many novels on this app but I haven’t found one that make me satisfied with it completely as our tastes vary so I decided to be bold and write one that I really enjoy.

Second, English is not my first language and I don’t use google translation so please tolerate with my bad English. If it is too hard to understand please give me comments so I can try to use google translation.

Third, I want to give you warning that this novel is based on the collective stories of real BDSM relationship so be aware of the strong language. The BDSM scenes are vivid so do not read if you are uncomfortable with forced love, torture. I know in BDSM we have to get the consent from both parties but it is not what I like for my character. I want my female lead to be like Virgin Mary, who does not succumb to sexual urges.

Fourth, I haven’t decided the ending yet so please let me hear your voice. Personally, I would like to let her end up with Sam, but up to you.

Last but not least, have fun reading y’all.