I was a normal person before he came along, I had a normal life, I was a single mother of a son who I adored so much I taught him everything he knows.

And I was proud of him his father was someone I thought I can trust, but it turns it turns out I was only someone he needs when he wanted sex.

Nor was I the only one he could turn to for sex the were many other besides me,so if I refused him in his state of lust he would go else where and i was always scared to loose him so I will try my best to please even when my mind scorned him so much I will ignore that though and let him has his way with me.

For that reason I had hated sex. Never like having the though of it and the more I hated it the lesser I enjoyed him and the feelings of loosing him become less and less scary when I though of him.

Then finally the day that he thought would never come came the day I leaved I pack up me and my son's things and leaves.

He cried and called me "Anna please let's talk about this and set things right for the sake of Paul." Paul was the name he had given our son he name him after himself.

But at that time I had had enough of him and his nonsense. "It not worth it any more paul I was waiting for your attention but it never belonged to me and I am tired of waiting so I guess u want your freedom to do as you please it seem as if I am just an obstacle blocking you from your happiness so I am moving out your way!"

Was my last words before I leaved I was in tears but I had a hope that things will get better once I get a job and make ends reach for my son and I.

I moved back at my mother house after a few months there I realized I can't work who's going to look after paul if I start working it was really difficult. A few more months rolled by Paul's father will send money to maintain him every now and then when ever he can. I however still wasn't satisfied so I leave my home town to get a job I also leave paul behind by his grandmother. It took me a week I didn't get a job but I raise enough money to have Paul by my side I missed him dearly.

I went and collected him and brought him back with me I also made arrangements for if I got a job where he would be staying. It was that very week I meet a guy that changed my life around he was cute and charming chocolate brown with beautiful light brown eyes as much as I didn't want any thing to do with relationship anymore there was some thing about him that just cause me to want him so badly something that just gasped my attention so fast at frist I wanted to reject the thoughts that was running through my mind when I first lay eye on him everything about him had made me ache for his touch but I hadn't shown that expression on my face I hide it within my mind we exchanged contact number that day.

The first time he called listening to his voice was driving me crazy it was listening to music that you love so much that you put it on repeat.

We talk several time till he ask me out on a date it was crazy how I wanted to say no because I was scared if I get the feeling sensation he voice give me but I said yes and that was it we went on our first date to my surprise we didn't talk that much on that date either I was shy and smiling alot while he was just there we had a few pieces of fried chicken which neither of us eat.

See I never like out door dating because i find crowded places annoying I hate being around too much people and I talk less if somewhere is crowded.