My heart was never at ease. It has been harmed numerous times and my hope for everything starts to tremble. I don’t think I could see and feel the same any longer, every day passing by my faith, trust gradually withering.

From the person that I love to a stranger I just met. It is all a mess, a total mess that can't be fixed easily. I tried many times to forget what happened but each time as those sickening memories flashed back into my memory, somehow begging for me not to overlook them. What a precious memory we all have made together.

The moment of my happiness ended in a flash as they had what they wanted, and when they got tired of me they sent me to another living monster. Yes, a monster. He is the definition of evil and cruel. A demon that would do anything to satisfy his desire.

As stupid I am I thought when I moved to another place away from my parents I would finally find and will be having the freedom I yearn for. But, that shattered when he spilt the truth of his decision in taking me.

My world crumbles not only into pieces but burns as well. It feels like I have never stopped crying ever since then. I gave up every time for what's the reason to live if I am just literally nothing to him.

My pain, sorrow in just one day turned into a heated pool of passionate nights. He changed, but why? Not knowing his intention behind his sudden changes brings chills all over my body. The madness night of crying, there won't be any more but nights of uncertainties and confusion between truth and lies.

He whispers words of promises and loves softly against my ear ever so gently he says. But, does he really mean it or it is just part of his games? I ask this universe hoping that it would know the answers but no. Then what is love? Pure hate? Perfection? Kindness? Tenderness? Protectiveness? Cherishing? Or just pure betrayal?

I blindly believe that only two hearts will be perfect with their imperfections when it comes to love but now I have to remind myself again that he is a monster but is not love is about accepting each other?

The situation changes every second. It seems love will be giving up on us at any moment. Oddly, yesterday he will bring me roses yet tomorrow he will bring me thorns. Yet again the sky is not always blue, sometimes the dark grey clouds also want to be noticed.

Love stands and holds thousands of meanings and different acts of love yet the one I trust and dear so much, in the end, breaks me. Like I am ashes if the wind came blasting brutally I would fly away into thin air. I don’t despise love for love also taught me many things. But can I trust and put my heart on the ashes line for love again?

To love someone who won’t love you back? What should I do, my heart falls hard for him?

But to him, I am just a plaything.

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*My very first story, thanks for clicking and giving this book a chance. This will not be perfect so if you find any errors do tell it nicely ;

*I made these characters with my own preferences

just like how I like it

, so my male characters are wild and dangerous as that is what I made. Not just because they need to be ruthless and have a dark past and so on. But still, no one born evil so I decided to put a motive for him. *hahaha*

*Contains mature themes, strong language and BDSM and violence and abuse. If you don't feel comfortable, then don't proceed to read. Warning for you * read on your own, It is not like I did not warn you beforehand.

*I gladly accept constructive criticism as I truly wanted to enhance my writing for future books.

*Last but not least, I am a new writer and very much excited to be part of this community, so, please DON'T COPY THIS STORY! THANKS!

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