What i saw everynight was something unbearable yet satisfying at the same time i wouldnt want anything to happen in that forbidden vision in that stated opportunity. So i woke up wondering if something will happen now or perhaps a day or two? Maybe something might pop up in the evening? Will i face the triumph and respect i've been striving for will i be of help to others in portraying such dreams? So i woke up with a neutral smile started my day and said to myself "subete daijobudesu".

　　Something bothered me as i walk thru these streets something felt uneasy while seeing other people enjoy such entertainment,I have never seen such bright smiles in my own household something that triggers me the most was there were people surrounding one another being in a group of actual people whom you talk with and whom you support, i despise those who seek of something so "Fun" i despise people who sees friends as essentials.

　　Never have i ever thought of something so foolish that is to be with people whom you thought you could trust, someone so ignorant enough to ever think of that is equal to a cow

　　Dreams are for the ones that walk alone,

　　Not for the ones that depend on others.

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　　I've lived a life full of lies, revolving my world around friends and depending on others. The ideal world of a foolish individual.

　　I started dreaming of one scenario in which i was running from these "friends" and these people, yet not knowing why or when it started but right then and there my subconcious was right all along, That what was happening in my dream was accurate i saw the path to the end, The bond that will sever and will be cut easily like paper.

　　How could one easily be betrayed just by believing the others side so easily before your own "Friend"

　　I never believed such dreams would come to life never did i thought that dreams are somewhat accurate, that is why i believe that this dream this wonderful dream i had every night intrigues me it sparks Joy in me,

　　Because i believe that it is possible, No i have proof that it's possible.

　　In my dream that i had the night before going around in the streets was:

　　A white cloth changing into a white tree all withered and all dead, but then a scenario comes in which it blooms of this flower of some kind it was a redish kind almost like a spider lily as they say

　　I

　　couldn't decipher what it meant but i believed that it was something that represents my success story and my happy ending as they would call it.

　　That's where i started to know alot of information on things i wanted to do, i started working on different things aswell as selling and offering others help in exchange for money and all kinds of services.

　　But life isn't as easy as it looks,

　　Life is never about triumph or respect.

　　Still...

　　I will never stop believing in my own dream and in my own subconcious, I will never depend on others once more.

　　Therefore i say to continue this path alone