Germaine.

"I'm sorry, but you have to leave." Maria tells me and smiles at me apologetically.

Really? Do people just get fired like this? Just like that... with your boss not caring to know a damn thing?

"Can I just see her?" I demand.

So far, this is the only job I could afford for my baby and I to live and... and I can't just afford to loose it.

"No. She doesn't want to see you either. I'm sorry." And what's she sorry about? Gawd, I always knew I had bad luck. Bad luck.

You hear that? I'm fucking sick of myself, fucking sick of life.

"Maria, is the nigga so handsome that you won't let go? "I hear a small laugh and footsteps. The door opens wider and I'm in contact with my worst enemy, stefuckinglla!

"Oh, it's you." She wears a knowing grin and leans closer.

"You should go already, miss. I'm so glad to be your end here." And she shuts the door at my face. I'm not surprised, I'm just hurt and angry. Playing games with Stella has always been dangerous and I had to pull myself away but she had been pushing my buttons and now, I lost my job. All thanks to her.

The sky's cloudy and I pray it doesn't rain. I pray I get home before it rains. If it rains longer, then I'll get home late. Shit, stupid!

I wear my hood and put on my ear buds to listen to music that's being my only companion with Alyssa ever since I was abandoned.

I'm Germaine Brown, daughter of late Mike Brown. I'm twenty and a single mom of a one year old Alyssa. It might be my fault I got pregnant but mum could've shown me love and support. Dad was a priest in his church and mum is an evangelist, two church and religious freaks that always made sure to preach the word of God to Diana and I every moment. We had always been stuck with the nerdy lifestyle and being different from everyone other highschool girls. It was kinda awkward for me 'cause I found joy in dancing but mum disapproved it. Dad encouraged me and made me promise I was never gonna go astray from the good ways. I did, I became the good girl who did everything her father and mother wanted her to despite the temptations and bullies in school. I had no friend and I was fine by that. All that mattered was making heaven like dad preached, making papa and mama proud and of course, dancing. But Diana had long ago cut the ties and pretended to be holy whenever we were with mum and dad. I kept that as a secret. She had a crush turned boyfriend in grade ten and gave him her purity, got influenced by him, sneaked out to party at night, started smoking and drinking and soon, she was taking coke. But dad and mom never cared, they never had an idea they've got a bad girl in the good girl's skin. Dad and mum, during that time, were always travelling for one mission or the other. Diana was always high and crazy and I was getting scared, scared for my baby sister. I was scared she might have an overdose and die, scared she might begin to have mental problems if she continued, scared she might get pregnant and have her future ruined...scared for her

Once I couldn't take it anymore, I gathered the courage to report her to father and mother. I was father's favorite and he believed me almost too immediately. Diana got confronted and was taken to the rehabilitation center.

When she returned, she was angry and irritated at me. I could tell that but she had taken everything from the wrong view. I never meant to hurt her, I meant to protect her. Diana was always ready to oppose me and bully me in school. She never changed, she only got worse and worst. A part of me was always hurt and felt foolish, maybe I had taken the wrong step...

Then it all started when Jeffrey broke up with Diana and started giving me attention, it was strange and weird. Yet, it felt good and honoring being with the hottest player in highschool. I had tried keeping my distance but he was persistent and we became friends eventually. He became not just a friend, but also my hero at school. Diana turned more infuriated when she saw Jeff and I hanging out. Jeff was a bad boy and a play boy but he'd tell me I was never his type and he wouldn't try anything with me. That was a relief, but I guess I was stupid trusting him.

Days passed by into weeks and Jeff and I had grown more closer while Diana was more of my enemy. Jeff was really fun, I had always thought, which was the beginning of my downfall and their success. I was beginning to like Jeff like every other girls. I wasn't supposed to have feelings for him but that was unavoidable.

Earlier that week, I had seen Diana and Jeff hanging out at the school parking lot and he had ran to me and told me he's in love with Diana and wants to be with her forever. That broke me but I knew I should be happy for him. But I wasn't... I mean why would he love Diana, his ex? Why would he love a girl that had been to rehab? Why not me? Couldn't he see I was falling in love with him already? That triggered a bad feeling from me for Diana and that feeling was hatred and jealousy.

I avoided him for the next two days and Diana always came back home looking as happy as I had always daydreamed myself being with him. I tried focusing on dancing and forgetting about him and Diana but it was as good as impossible.

Dad passed away not quite long and we mourned. It was a shocker to me that dad had cancer but had hid it from us and most of his travellings were to get treatments. I was gonna miss my dad, I knew but little did I know a lot more was coming for me.

"Will you go to the party?" Diana asked and I tensed. Diana spoke to me politely for once?

"No" I shrugged and walked away. I wasn't joining her in her ways.

'Will you go to the party?'Jeff texted me and I was about replying 'no' when the next came in.

'...with me?' It sounded like a date. Jeff was practically asking me out on a date and I couldn't say no. I didn't care if he loved Diana or not, I sent him a yes.

"Will you go to the party?" Diana appeared at my door and I eyed her before saying yes. Mum wasn't around that day too, we got dressed and left for the party.

Jeff seduced me into getting drunk and for the first time, I tasted alcohol. I was drunk and weak and Jeff offered to drive me home. I agreed but we didn't end up at my house. We ended up at a hotel room and Diana was waiting for him with a smirk. That night, I got raped by my sister's boyfriend as a revengeful act.

That was the worse type of betrayal. Diana made me loose not only my virginity, but made me pregnant for her boyfriend and mum threw me out at nineteen, few weeks to graduation. Mum disowned me and threw me out when the pregnancy was two months old and that added to my depression. I didn't know where to go but somehow, I found a job as a waitress and managed to get an apartment. But you won't believe if I tell you Diana and mum stay in this same city with I. I've never really seen much of mum and whenever I do, I always make sure to hide myself.

And the stupid fact's that I just got sacked of the job that had been managing to keep Alyssa and I. My life's just messed up and I don't know what to do.

I can't go back to mum. I won't. I want to raise Alyssa and it's been almost two years already.

A tap on my shoulder makes me jerk back in surprise.

"Are you okay?" Oh, goddammit! I can't believe I've been grieving and brooding on the road. This is stupid, and I am going crazy...

I turn and it's a guy... Brown eyes and a cute stubble. Damn! He's handsome.

He smiles at me.

"I'm...I'm fine..." I stutter moving backwards, away from him

"It's Jedd." he tells me

Jedd? Jeff? Both handsome... Both hot...

"I'm fine." I say and turn to go immediately but he follows me for some unknown reason.

"You won't mind to join me in the car. It looks like it's about to fall." He calls after me. And I get into another trap?I would try as hard not to get involved with another hot looking play boy. I would rather live my life for Alyssa than get betrayed and hurt again.

"Miss..." He calls when I don't reply him

"I'm fine!" I yell but he keeps coming. What if he wants to kidnap me? Diana might not be through with her revenge plan...oh no! That won't happen!

I get home drenched and cold already. I open the door to my apartment and the first thing my eyes search for is my baby.

"There." I smile and walk over to where she's sleeping on the couch. Her babysitter must have gone and I'm sorry for being late than expected.

I take off my wet shirt before carrying her, my angel. I hug her to my chest and kiss her forehead. Seeing her fine and perfect just got me feeling more alive, I would do anything to make sure she's not hurt. And I don't care any longer if she ruined my future, she's my future already. She's my everything and I'm learning to be a good mother, to be better than mum. To be the best for her!

I take her to our room and lay her on the bed. She smiles from her sleep when I kiss her forehead and I grin. Having a baby at this age might be weird but it only brings happiness to me. I've got a true companion.

One Month Later

No job, just Alyssa and I and I've been doing good. Just good. Not so bad, my savings has been the only thing keeping us but I'm gonna run out of money soon and I'll be needing a job more urgently than ever.

The house rent runs out in two months. I've used the last dollars bills from my savings to purchase some groceries which will soon be running out too. I'll also be needing to pay Alyssa's babysitter. I told her to stop coming already but I owe her a month payment. I've got bills to settle and no job. Everything's on my neck and I need a goddamn job as fuck!

"Mama..." Alyssa calls gaining my attention and I turn to where she's seated on the floor and my God...! She's got her body messed up with butter, her fingers especially. Her gown is soaked with the tea and the bread, torn in bits by her.

She grins at me and licks her finger making another mess on her lips.

"No, baby Ally." I scold walking to her but she only giggles. I squat to her and stare at her with a playful glare.

She doesn't get it either, she only laughs and says some gibberish words. She stands and walk closer to me. She hugs me before I can fathom what she was doing and I hug her back...I can't get mad at her. But she already made a mess on my clothes too.

She laughs and pulls away. She sits down back and reaches for a piece of bread that has been soaked in tea by her. She puffs it in her mouth and I watch her. Seriously? I can't be the one doing this when I was little.

"You know you deserve a punishment for making a mess." I scold. She looks at me and laughs making almost everything in her mouth spit out.

And this is more shitty but I won't get annoyed by that.

"I love you, momma..." she ain't fluent with her words but... my baby just said she loves me... Baby Ally loves me...My God!

I am so excited as I pull her into a surprising hug and she giggles. She doesn't know how she just made me happy right now. Hearing that from her is so perfect, it's no fake love. It's true and I'm already emotional, tears of joy threatening to fall out of my eyes.

I place her back on the floor when I notice she was getting uncomfortable with the long hug.

"I love you too, baby." I tell her and kiss her cheeks and forehead. She laughs at this. There was nothing so funny about that but she is the happy type.

"Now, let's get you clean once again." I say and pick her up.

" No Ally, no!" I scold as I pull my phone away from her grip and she laughs. I place it back on the nightstand and she reaches for it.

"Baby Ally!" I frown and collect it again. She looks at me and crawls to me. I smile and make her sit on my stomach.

"I love you, mummy..." She says again almost bringing tears to my eyes.

"I love you more, baby. Now, join mummy and sleep." I say and hug her. She giggles and lay properly on me and soon, she was fast asleep.

The ringing of the doorbell wakes me up only to realize Ally wasn't sleeping again and she was nowhere to be found in the room. Seriously, where is she?

The doorbell rings again and I have no choice than to go check it. I walk out of our room to the living room and walk to the front door.

I open it and to my surprise, Diana stands there staring at me with a nervous smile.

What is she doing here? And she looks more better than I remember.

"Hi." She finally speaks up and I blink my eyes.

This is Diana, my betrayal. My evil sister. The girl that had been the foundation of my ruin. The girl that had ruined my dream of becoming a dancer. The girl that had made me a bastard and a final year dropout, the girl that fooled me into loving someone.