Today started as any other day would have. I got up showered ate breakfast and left for my shift at the St. Regis hotel. I was the top server there, I worked on the top floor and it was a good job that still let me fit in graduate classes in the evenings. Working at the St.Regis branch had its advantages and the tips they were part of the greatness, all of the wealthy people stayed when they were in town and we hosted half the city's affairs. Walking into the elevator I ride up with Mr. James a lawyer from the firm across the way that is trying to seal the deal on a new case but the defence isn't budging he has grumbled for the past week each time we meet. I chuckle and shake my head not really understanding it all but getting the gest, we walk out of the elevator and I bid him a farewell and wish him good luck on today's meeting rushing to clock in. Smiling I scurry alone the hotel is booked with three events, and I've just been notified that I am pulling a double I sight and pull out my phone to text my boyfriend to cancel our plans.

He responds quickly and I tuck my phone inside my pocket and head towards the kitchen. I grab the drinks and rush them to suites knocking on each door twice before entering. Most times I am greeted warmly and other times the guest aren't as friendly but I still do the job I came to do. I hit almost every room on the top floor except for the executive and the CEOs they weren't in today so they didn't need my services. I had only met the executive once, seems that there personal secretaries are usually doing there bidding entering the elevator i scoot to the far corner as I take the ride down making room for the crows that I'm sure I'm to ride with. Like expected about fifteen others clamber in drawn to themselves and Im thankful I like feeling like the small blur in their world.

As the elevator pinged open at the last floor I hoped out of my spot stalking out as I brushed past what felt like a brick wall I look back but the figure is gone just as quick as it appeared I shake it off and walk to the car hoping in I check my phone and read the response. " It's cool I had a few things to take care of anyway. Have a good day at work I hope it's not too late when you make it home call when you're off. The events had ended about two hours early tonight meaning that instead of getting home at 1 I would be there a little after 11. Starting my car I reversed from my spot and raced home looking to maybe surprise him and go out because its been months since we've shared each other's company romanticly and I think the distance is getting between us I mean we use to love to have sex but lately I've been lucky to even get a kiss.

Between work and classes I'm lucky to get a full day with him once a week ok every other but that is only for the mean time we set goals and I'm trying to reach mines yeah he might have gotten to his a year before me and wanted to take care of me but I needed to do this for me, and I needed him to be ok with it. Pulling into the parking space I jump out and let myself into the apartment building and climb the stairs anxious to see my men but I stop a little as I reach his door and see it partially cracked I peak inside but see no movement walking in i keep the door adjar just incase I have to leave quickly if its a burrgerler. Seeing as nothing seemed up turned I made my way to my small balcony and peer out the window and relax a little seeing Trey's car outside and my best friends too when did she get here. Taking another look around I begin to take off my jacket but stop as mild moans fill the living room. I stand startled at the noise that seems to be coming from my bedroom as my heart falls to the pit of my stomach as I walk down my halls with trembling hands praying a silent prayer.

I twist the knob and walk inside the room and catch my bestfriend sitting astride my boyfriend riding him like her life depended on it. Frozen to the spot I stood there watching them partake in an act so intimate that it brought tears to my eyes. I wanted to lash out grab her smash her face in but I couldn't do it, so I did what I do best I turned towards the door slamming it open it bounces off the door and I grab my things and storm out. Needing to escape quickly I just take off running leaving my apartment and my car which I really wish I hadn't. The thunder roars and lightning cracks the sky as rain begins to pour the sky imitating what I feel inside my heart I dash into the first bar I see taking down my smart bun I try and shake the water off of me.

Walking to the first booth I saw I climbed in and was thankful for the vent above me blowing out a little heat. A waitress approached me and I ordered a bottle of tequila with lemons and salt.

I needed to numb the pain of betrayal that was running through my veins. She delivered it with a smile and I chucked the shot glass and chugged from the bottle. Pulling my phone from my pocket I debate calling my sister so late but right now I need someone to talk me off the ledge. After another shot I decided to wallow in my own pity. It's my fault why else would they do what they did and betray me, I know I'm away a lot but still it's me we are talking about here. Sitting back I take another shot and a new song comes on and I smile as I close my eyes and begin to sing alone in my own little world to Beyonce's Me Myself and I plays loud with a lot of singing from the crowd I find myself feeling numb to the pain as I sing my heart out with closed eyes. When I open them again it seems the whole bar is staring at me as I shrink back into the seat. Damn I didnt think my shower voice was that bad I whispered as I look around. That's when a deafening round of applause and cheers rang loose even more shocked I smile and nod towards the crowd as the dj puts on another song. I get up making my way to the dance floor bottle in hand as people look at me throwing winks and stares.

If I was going to get through tonight I needed to forget about them and especially him. I finish the rest of the contents in the bottle and place it ion the table jumping into the hustle line. Thankful I was blessed with a few talents and dancing was one of them. He switches up the music and I begin to retreat to my seat as I feel eyes on me scanning the dance floor I see no one looking so my eyes travel to the second floor and that's when I see his sparkling eyes on me filled with a bunch of different thing but lust was prominent. I turned from him and ran straight into another body the caught me before i fell flat on my butt. Murmuring I look up and meet his eyes and recognition hits me Chris I say and he gives me a once over Denise girl its been ages he yells over the music and I chuckle as he pulls me into a hug. Looking around he ask the one question I've been dreading, Where's Trey? He looks back over at my facial expression and I'm thankful he doesn't ask again rubbing my shoulders he asks me with a cherry smile to dance and I nod and agree. He pulls me to the dance floor and they play some old school jams which keeps us out there for a little while.

He makes me remember what it was like before I begin playing a dutiful wife without the title and right now I'm the old me and I love it. My heart may be broken and Ive might of lost my best friend but now I'm free and I like this feeling a couple more sexual songs come on and I debate if it;s a good idea to continue on with Chris although he is a good distraction I couldn't see myself repaying the favor by sleeping with one of his friends. Turning to face him I let him know I'm going to the bar and he decides to join me ordering three more shots i pour some salt on my hand and down them all quickly, Chris eyes rise in shock as she passes him his rum and coke, he finally breaks the ice as I feel eyes on me again watching me. So it's that bad huh he murmurs looking at me with sorrowful eyes and I fight back my tears as I shake my head yes. " Do you want to talk about it?” he asks and I shake my head no as a single tear leaves my eye. Looking up at him I whisper for him to give me a moment I needed to use the restroom. Climbing off the stool I made my way to the ladies room and locked myself inside the stall.