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　　' hi, today is my 8th birthday i dont know what emotions i'll show outside this world later but...'

　　As i type every words in my head in my loptop that my Father gave to me yesterday for advance gift...

　　' before that let me introduce myself, my name is Elinora for short Elin my mother use to call me by my nickname so... Lets just say call me whatever you want i dont care, anyway im in my bedroom..'

　　'Wait what am i doing... I should be going downstair eating breakfast-- and feeding my goldfish yeah i have a pet i dont know if he's still alive because he's floating in the water...my mom just said that he's resting so i should stay away from him for a bit...'

　　While typing those words in my head a voice called out my name. Its Mom.

　　"Elin!  You better get down here now! Or else i will feed your breakfast to the dogs" Mom shouted as she rush in the kitchen. She always say that every morning, i moved my loptop and place it on my small table i left my bed and walk through the bathroom. I look at myself at the small mirror and realize that my braces is not in the right position so i move my both hands and arrange it.

　　Today's breakfast is pancake with raspberry on it i started to eat the berries first then the pancakes i dont know how to describe the taste but its quite delicious i wish this wont end.

　　"Elin, i need to go somewhere okay, i need you to be here i'll talk to your teacher that you'll be absent today..."

　　My eyes widen as i hear her say those words to me. Is she kidding me?! Thats not a problem i'll be happy in here.

　　"o-okay goodluck." i replied shortly.

　　She turned her gaze to me as her lips open for incoming words.

　　" hey, i know what your thinking dont dare to go outside rat" she removed her eyes to me as she wear her tall shoe i dont know what to call it but nuhh, its still a fine name for me.

　　And who told her im going outside... And hey Im not a rat.

　　"what are you looking at? Finish your breakfast and leave it in the table as ALWAYS" She rolled her eyes and turned her gaze to mine she walk closely to me, i dont like this...

　　She grabbed my chin furiously and lock her eyes to mine giving me her death glare " Hey dear, you dont want Mommy to get mad at you AGAIN right?" saying those words to me with a smile but i know its fake...fake like everyday,like Father.

　　I felt my eyes filled with tears and fear my Mother is not like the normal Mother i knew she's like the monster in the movie i watched Annabele her thick red lips and her round eyes is scarying me i wish when i grow up everything will change.

　　"y-yes m-m-mother" i stammered an answer.

　　"dont.tell.your.Father. about this and me as well going somewhere else, don't worry dear as long as he don't know he won't hurt yah GET IT?" she whispered through my ears, she removed her hands off my chin and my awaiting tears fell down to my chicks.

　　I didn't make a sound as i cry, i didn't make my face move a muscle except for my tears falling down as she wanted. I don't want her to slap me hard like before because i cried loudly that made her irritated.

　　She gave me a glare before leaving my sight i look down not showing my face to her.

　　I ate the last part of the pancake and put it on the kitchen table.

　　I m about to walk outside to the swing that Father made for me, when she grabbed my dress from behind."Hey!"

　　"M-mother please let go my dress ypu may tear my dress severely please Mother " i cried. This dress was my last memory with Grandma. Im worried that she may ruin that special memory of mine.

　　4 hours later

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　　That day was Christmas i was only six and that day she gave me her last gift before her last breath. I hold her hand shes lying on her her bed that time chasing her breath i was scared that time that once she sleep and never wake up she'll never get to see me grow up, i don't know why but i feel like im mature right now maybe because of this bad things happened to me? And making me realize that life isn't easy...

　　I close my loptop as i finished telling my 'what is my day today'.

　　Arg..."Now Introduction check...hmm... Whats next?" i told yah self every DAY is a disaster. Even my Birthdays.