ran outside, and looked for her calling her name, my heart breaking as I found her body on the floor.

That's when everything rushed to me, my heart breaking, ripping, tearing shattering apart. I couldn't breathe properly, it was cold and it started to pour rain.

I dropped to my knees, as tears struck my eyes, we were in an alley, it was pitch black and no one would see us.

"Nalia" I cry my head dropped to her chest, tears flowing down my face, as I held her up and cried more.

I heard her heartbeat and it was fading.... my throat clenching and I'd never felt this before, this was nothing I ever expected to endure.

This agony eating me alive, her face was dull, empty, she was unconscious and I don't want to know if she is dead.

"NALIA!" I yell and she didn't answer, I should've fucking payed attention to her when she left.

And that's when I saw it

The gunshot....

Her hand on her stomach, weird....I layed my head on her stomach and felt something like a kick?

I look over her body, she hadn't been eating the right food in days, she'd have these weird cravings and always needed to use the bathroom.....

My baby is pregnant...and she didn't tell me.

I lift her up, tears soaking my eyes, I took her to my car and speeded off to the hospital.

Once we got there, they took her in, my eyes still filled with tears, I couldn't handle this...then I heard heels clicking, and a certain sound of jewellery hitting against eachother.

I turned to see...my mother she stood there, wrapped in her expensive fur coat, her arms wide open...with a weak smile.

I hugged her so tight, sniffing, as she rubbed my back.

"She's pregnant" I sob into my mothers arms.

"It's okay my son...she'll heal..it's temporary" her voice so soft, as I let more tears flow down my cheeks...

"I love her with all my heart" I say and turn to see Nalia still unconscious...

"HER HEART STOPPED GET THE-" the nurses started to scream, and that's when my heart shattered....

Drowning inside these walls of fear

Take my hand and stay with me my dear

I think you broke my heart..... again....

Please don't leave....

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"The baby survived.....but" the nurse starts and I glare at her making her silent.

The nurses left, so did my mother I told her to go, so it didn't really matter. I walk sat on my knees laying my head on Nalia's stomach looking up to her face.

I started to sob, as I held her cold hand, her skin was ice cold...I kissed her hand and placed it to my cheek.

"Please wake up...don't leave me.. you promised me you wouldn't." I sniff

Then I heard footsteps, Kairi and Alejandro walked in.

They looked at her body and were shocked, immediately coming to her side, their eyes starting to water.

"I- she doesn't look good" Alejandro says

"Is she?" Kairi says looking at me and I stand up.

"I don't know, her heart stopped...they tried everything and couldn't get her back....she's pregnant and the baby is alive" I say

"She's pregnant?" They were shocked and I nodded

"She didn't tell me, I found out" I say and walk out.

I couldn't handle the pain in there anymore, I didn't want to see her like this, I wish I was the one in her state. If only life worked the way we wanted it.

When she came into my life, she changed everything for me, I became a better person and viewed things differently.

She made me happy, and most of all, helped me get through the worst.

I walked back in, only to find Alejandro and Kairi gone...What the fuck

I started to get angry, why ISNT she waking up, I won't let her die.

But I couldn't bare the sight of her in this state, she was devastated..and it's all my fucking fault.

I began to walk out, until I heard a cough...

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I looked back, and Nalia was still...I don't even know if she is alive.

My heart breaking with every tear that slid down my cold face.

It was 12am pouring rain, my tears fell in sync with the rain, hitting my window I yelled.

I walk out my heart broken as I saw a nurse walk to me.

"Mr Polibio....she...I don't know how I'm going to say this...but Nalia is...dead" she says and I gulp.

I immediately left the hospital and sat in my car, my eyes pouring with tears, my throat clenching.... she's dead.

Nalia was my whole life, she made everything better. All my memories of us together those small moments when we were smiling flooded my mind.

What am I going to do? I can't live without her...and my baby... she's pregnant. Their both dead.

"WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME" I sob

"SHE WAS MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE, AND SHES PREGNANT WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?" I hit the steering wheel.

I felt weak, I never felt this, my heart racing as my vision became blurry from my tears. The rain didn't stop, just like my tears.

"She said she would never leave me" I frown my throat aching.

I turned on my car and sped off to our home, me and Nalia's. Everything is going to be different now..

No more mornings together, she wouldn't be here to help me at 4am when I drink and bawl my eyes.

She's gone and never coming back...

And I don't think I'll ever be able to move on....but I have to......

Once I arrive home, I go to our room, her scent still in the air. I walked to her closet, her jewellery, clothes..everything here, but she wasn't.

Her smile, everytime she laughed made me go crazy, I would die for her...but she died for me...and I'll never be able to forgive myself....

I started to sob, I cried I didn't give a fuck anymore, all I wanted was her..alive in my arms.

Then I get a call, Alejandro.

"She's dead" he says, his voice breaking

"I know..." I say and he sniffs, fuck I don't want to cry all over again.

"I'm sorry, she was beautiful...everything about her...I'm here for anything" Alejandro says before I hang up.

*ring ring*

I answer it..

"What?" I say

"Boss, we've been ambushed, and you need to be here. The leaders have came themselves...." the guard says and I hang up.

I needed something to get my mind off this topic.